Back to blogging.

As you can tell it has been a while since I've been on here. Almost 2 months! Well Im happy to say  my babygirl was finally born!!! I'm in so much love with her! She is perfect! I love everything about her! She is a bit crabby but she is still perfect! Arabella my baby you will always be. She is 19 days old. One of the best 19 days of my life happen to be her 19 days of life. <3 Anyways, I have been loving McDonalds vanilla iced coffee like crazy Ive been getting one everyday! I think its driving my husband insane but I can't help it!!! So far being at home with the kids is a bit rough sometimes but my kids are wonderful. They understand somewhat that some of my time is spent with baby and keeping up the household! Thankfully my husband is wonderful! He helps out with whatever he can and he doesn't have to help out. He's the one bringing home the bacon! I am forever grateful for his existence and for being my husband and father to out kids! :)  Oh and last Thursday part of my heart was taken from me. I had to let Lily go. I love her very much that it was something I had to do. It wasn't fair to neglect her for obvious reason that I had no time for her. I could see the hurt in her eyes when i would look at her. She knows that I had no time for her. My dads friend took her in and I know she will be with someone who can dedicate his whole time with her. I love her much that letting her go was showing my love to her. She was happy to go. I know in her little heart she was going to be happy. She will always be my first love. No other dog can ever replace her.  Anyways other then that life has been great. I feel at ease with life. I can finally say I am in a good place. My soul can feel it and my family has everything to do with it. Until then..